A Tribute to The Life Lived in Erlene Stallard

 

 

 

Sleeping,
I am awakened to the ring of the phone.
Hearing my daughter in conversation,
I wonder who is on.
She enters in and hands the phone to me;
I hear a familiar voice speaking,
My nephew, Sadly
"Grandma is gone" is what I hear.
Your time has finally come, Mother dear.

I am saddened by the news
But knowing your choice, this is what you'd choose.
Now new tears I cry
But I am comforted by the memories of your smile.

Going on, you're no longer alone
As you move on from your earthly home.
We'll miss you immensely that is sure;
Still you will live on forever more.
And I know we'll meet again on the other side
Of this experience where I still reside

Lisa

 

 

Talking To My Angel
(Melissa Etheridge)
 

Don't be afraid
Close your eyes
Lay it all down
Don't you cry
Can't you see I'm going
Where I can see the sun rise
I've been talking to my angel
And he said that it's alright

I've always had to run
I don't know just why
Desire slowly smoking
Under the midwest sky
There's something waiting out there
That says I've got to try
I've been talking to my angel
And he said that it's alright

This town thinks I'm crazy
They just think I'm strange
Sometimes they want to own me
Sometimes they wish I'd change
But I can feel the thunder
Underneath my feet
I sold my soul for freedom
It's lonely but it's sweet

Don't be afraid
Close your eyes
Lay it all down
Don't you cry
Can't you see
I'm going
Where I can see the sun rise
I've been talking to my angel
And he said that it's alright

 

This song played as I drove home from picking up my son from work after hearing the news. It seemed fitting and something Mother  might have said to us herself.

 

 

 

 

Erlene Stallard

April 10, 1931 - December 18, 2003

Married to Dwaine Stallard on February 28, 1947. They had 8 children, one of whom is my twin flame and the father of our daughter - Brittni Leigh. Though he and I experienced a separation of sorts, I have still felt close to his parents. Mother and I shared a line of communication that others weren't aware of sometimes.  There were years that would pass without a spoken word but the connection and bonds between us and my love for her remained. She now takes that love and the love from the many others with her to another place beyond this life that we know.

 

I went to see her in an answer to her calling only weeks ago. I was saddened that I had not gone earlier this year when she was able to know that I wasn't there. I don't understand why she called to me in the silent language that she and I shared, but I had go. Though her body lay there, a seemingly empty shell, I know that somehow she knew that I was there.

 

Sometimes I think she had left that tired body and being still tied to it beyond our understanding came to me to break the news ahead of time. She had to say good-bye and prepare me so that I could be strong  - like she always seemed to be.   She gave me one final gift in that time that I was there. It had to do with something I know she wanted but to my knowledge, never said. She didn't impose her wants and desires on others. She wasn't that way. 

 

This picture of Mother and me was taken in summer of 2001 I believe.

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Hearing this song I will think of you Mother and as always one other, and of course that separation . . .
Company by Rickie Lee Jones

 

 

 

 

 

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